Do You Believe My Love?Do you not think I can love?
Do you not think I'm sincere?
What is it about me dove
What is it you fear?
I have told you that I love you
What is it I have yet to do?
To show you that my love is true
And make your days a little less blue
I do not think you understand
What I'm willing to do for you
Flavorful love, never bland
I have told you, it's all true
When you finally do see
I hope it's not too late
I've wanted you to claim me
The one you love, your mate
Words...Your words you use
You use to abuse
Telling me what I am
Revealing me as a sham
To you I am untrustworthy
Not good enough, no loyalty
With some sugar you coat it all
Making me feel like I am small
Pretty words won't mask the pain
What did you really have to gain?
Don't LeaveYou see me sliding
The more I'm trying
Watching me lose it
How close will you get?
With you knowing who I am
Knowing I am not a lamb
But I am not strong enough
I don't have the lion's stuff
Not weak but not strong
Never right but always wrong
Living here I am in pain
Trying so hard to stay sane
You leave me standing here alone
Look at the hate that you have grown
How much I miss you you won't know
I just wish you wouldn't let go
She FellThis is the girl who fell from grace
Cause she couldn't find her place
She stood out with a cute face
But let's get back to the case
She tried to run from everything bad
Realizing no matter what she was sad
It was only love that could make her glad
A love she lost like a trending fad
Trying to forget and not be in pain
All while trying to not go insane
Looking around at what she can gain
Only to realize that life is plain
Deciding and choosing all on impulse
Even if she knew the info was false
Scared it will all stop her own pulse
Afraid of those she might repulse
Losing a battle she has always fought
Realizing now that she is caught
She punches her fists at every thought
Hating everything that she sought
This is the girl who fell from grace
Trying and failing to find her place
Now that you see all of her ugly face
We can now finally close this case
SuccubusDo not fall for her tricks and charm
She really means to cause you harm
Lulling you into a sweet trance
To where you would not have a chance
She will lead you into the fog
Passing many a fallen log
Until she turns on you so quick
And gives your neck a little lick
Once you realize you are caught
It won't help how much you fought
Into your neck she sinks her teeth
Drained, your body crumbles beneath
Beauty in FreedomYou will always despise
What you see with your eyes
Because you won't ever see
What it means to be free
Freedom is beautiful
Far more than an eye-full
The ugly hides away
In happiness you'll lay
Beauty is more than seen
To understand what I mean
Dig down deep to your soul
And find what makes you whole
When you finally find it
That's when freedom is shit
And it is no longer yours
Where all your blood pours
Downward SpiralMy heart beats
Is it beating?
I sit here
Wondering and waiting
Will the pain go away?
If I stop breathing
Will it hurt?
I have no control
I want it to stop
Who am I?
What am I?
An evil that burns
An evil that yearns
I'm not free
I will never be free
Never in my mind
Someone stop it
Stop the beating
It hurts too much
Or hurts not enough
Why am I here
Why why why
Why am I so lost
Lost even before then
I haven't been found
I can't find
No More ChasingYou sat there and made me believe
Giving me hope so I can breathe
Belief in love and hope for good
Always seemed to brighten my mood
But then you pulled away and frowned
In all my thoughts I could have drowned
Maybe it was too much that I expected
The reason why you had retracted
All I want now is to have no pain
And your love is what I want to gain
I know what I want is much to ask
I know it's just too hard of a task
I will stop all my hurt and chasing
Limit the time with me you're facing
I won't be bothering you anymore
Because for now my heart is too sore
Crimson LoveMy heart is broken, beaten and battered
Shattered like the most delicate of glass roses
It lies next to you in your bleak and desolate grave
The solemn hole you fell into when you took your final breath
Our life was sound, our love pure
Then we watched our walls come crashing down
As fate intervened in the form of reality
We heard the death clock's chilling chime
I'm left forlorn in this tragic world
I try to live but all in vain
It's not living without you
All that's left are my memories, my illusions, my delusions
The ominous blade, a reassuring friend in which I trust
Glistening with the tears I cry for what could have been
It slides so lovingly into the empty void of my once beating heart
An incredulous and overwhelming sense of relief
I lie in a pool of crimson love
Smiling as I fall from grace
Now we can be together forever
In the land of perpetual darkness
SunburnYou are my girdle of thorns;
every move I make
leaves me bleeding,
dropping pieces of my singed spirit
anywhere I run.
You are the coals beneath my feet
I cannot escape from the burn of you,
Scars InsideI wish that I were covered in scars
At least that way,
The outside would match the inside.
Finally and forever
That is what I see when I look into your eyes.
I cannot see your soul,
It's been sealed away.
There is no longer any way
To save the you that I once knew,
You are lost.
There you are again
Like a great deluge in my heart,
The blood drenched waters
Are far too deep for me to ever escape.
And I cannot see
And I cannot feel
With a flutter of wings like paper,
You've set my soul on fire
Killing me slowly
I am your prey.
Feeling through your eyes
Beneath an artificial moon
In an imaginary sky
There is no longer any light.
And all the scars
From all the stars
Go bleeding down the drain
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"Hey man, I thought perhaps you might be able to shed some light on something;
Where does one start with getting into your world? illustration? Animation? General fine art? I’m 28 and looking at rebooting my life by advancing my favourite lifelong hobby into (hopefully) a better job, but to risk 3 years of my life and upwards of £30k, I don’t want to go in the wrong direction right at the start.
I know you’re USA and I’m UK, but what course did you do? What’s your origin story, and your advice to someone who wants to follow a similar path?
Cheers bro, really appreciate the time you take to read this meaty message.”
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How to become a better colorist?Hey guys and girls. Today something especially for you. Some useful tips from coloring artist.
Some of you asked me about tutorial. I really wanted to write one but they are so time consuming.
So let's start.
1. Make good flats at the start. Use polygonal lasso tool in Photoshop and then Paint bucket tool, it's the most accurate method. Filling areas with brushes is wrong, believe me. You will swear to gods and scream out loud trying to later fill all these tiny holes you didn't notice white painting flats with brush.
Of course don't stick to this advice too much. If you have a bunch of tiny elements it's obvious that it's better to color them with hard brush than to use lasso, especially the polygonal one
My way of doing flats is to make every particular color/character on a separate layer. For example, having two girls, sky and clouds in the picture, I make 3 groups: background, girl1, girl2. Then in each group I make layers for: sky, clouds, skin, hair, shirt, jeans... etc. May look
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Where was he?
Suddenly, footsteps. The jingle of keys. A soft whimper formed in her throat as the door's lock clicked quietly. The door swung open slowly, revealing the large Alpha male who had entered her Master's territory. However this was no random male, of course, but her Master himself. His large form dominated the doorway as he strode in with confidence. This was his house. His domain.
Her mind began to race as she watched him, every ounce of control being used to not moan with the fire he had al
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"Haha, alright. Here we go. One for you... one for you... and one for the cute little kitty! Alright now, have a good night! Be safe!"
"Thank you!" the group responded in unison.
Kitten giggled, inspecting her quickly filling bag of candy. Purring softly to herself she sat down for a moment to dig through the bag to find a piece worthy of being the first. After a few moments she became separated from the main group of Trick or Treaters who were roaming the neighborhood as they carried on without their temporary companion. She glanced up, her head cocking to the side in confusion for a moment as she tried to locate them.
"Mmph.." she pouted, "they left me... "
With a huff she got to her feet and began to prance off in the direction she believed they had taken, neglecting to realize that the street she'd chosen was dark and abandoned...
"Where is everyone... ?" she thought to herself, looking around.
Sighing, she dec
A Moment with her Master -- Pet-Play/BDSM Story"Good girl!" Master laughed, watching the young girl who sat on the floor on a small cushion, controller in hand. She had just taken down an enemy who'd given her trouble previously.
A purr escaped her as she grinned back at him mischievously, causing him to laugh at her silly, triumphant expression.
"Pause, and come here." he spoke quietly, still watching her.
Kitten mewed softly, tilting her head curiously, but obeyed. She crawled over to him with tail swishing slightly. Her collar's tags clinked softly. Around the house it was her main accessory, clothes being a rarity and only a bra and maybe a pair of boyshorts at that. At the moment she wore only a black lacy bra, long fluffy tail, and her collar.
"Yes, Master?" she asked, not understanding his motives.
Suddenly he laughed. In the next instant he was pulling her up and wrapping his arms around her tightly, pinning her to his chest in a grip that caused her to squeak softly as air was forced out of her lungs. He laughed again, sti
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"Kitten! What are you doing?!" An intimidating male voice yelled.
Kitten gulped, looking behind her, seeing the muddy prints on the floor before her eyes came to rest on the man who had spoken.
"H.. hi, Master... " she greeted him with a sheepish grin, gulping guiltily.
With a stern look he quickly walked towards her and grabbed her by the collar. With a quick motion she was leashed and being led into the bathroom. He grabbed an old dirty towel and had her quickly clean up the mess as he kept a tight grip on her leash. Once this was finished he led her to the bathroom by the leash and turned the faucet on in the over-sized bathtub. As the bathtub slowly filled he stripped to his boxers, knowing how the guilty looking already stripped cat-h