Do You Believe My Love?Do you not think I can love?
Do you not think I'm sincere?
What is it about me dove
What is it you fear?
I have told you that I love you
What is it I have yet to do?
To show you that my love is true
And make your days a little less blue
I do not think you understand
What I'm willing to do for you
Flavorful love, never bland
I have told you, it's all true
When you finally do see
I hope it's not too late
I've wanted you to claim me
The one you love, your mate
Words...Your words you use
You use to abuse
Telling me what I am
Revealing me as a sham
To you I am untrustworthy
Not good enough, no loyalty
With some sugar you coat it all
Making me feel like I am small
Pretty words won't mask the pain
What did you really have to gain?
Don't LeaveYou see me sliding
The more I'm trying
Watching me lose it
How close will you get?
With you knowing who I am
Knowing I am not a lamb
But I am not strong enough
I don't have the lion's stuff
Not weak but not strong
Never right but always wrong
Living here I am in pain
Trying so hard to stay sane
You leave me standing here alone
Look at the hate that you have grown
How much I miss you you won't know
I just wish you wouldn't let go
She FellThis is the girl who fell from grace
Cause she couldn't find her place
She stood out with a cute face
But let's get back to the case
She tried to run from everything bad
Realizing no matter what she was sad
It was only love that could make her glad
A love she lost like a trending fad
Trying to forget and not be in pain
All while trying to not go insane
Looking around at what she can gain
Only to realize that life is plain
Deciding and choosing all on impulse
Even if she knew the info was false
Scared it will all stop her own pulse
Afraid of those she might repulse
Losing a battle she has always fought
Realizing now that she is caught
She punches her fists at every thought
Hating everything that she sought
This is the girl who fell from grace
Trying and failing to find her place
Now that you see all of her ugly face
We can now finally close this case
SuccubusDo not fall for her tricks and charm
She really means to cause you harm
Lulling you into a sweet trance
To where you would not have a chance
She will lead you into the fog
Passing many a fallen log
Until she turns on you so quick
And gives your neck a little lick
Once you realize you are caught
It won't help how much you fought
Into your neck she sinks her teeth
Drained, your body crumbles beneath
Beauty in FreedomYou will always despise
What you see with your eyes
Because you won't ever see
What it means to be free
Freedom is beautiful
Far more than an eye-full
The ugly hides away
In happiness you'll lay
Beauty is more than seen
To understand what I mean
Dig down deep to your soul
And find what makes you whole
When you finally find it
That's when freedom is shit
And it is no longer yours
Where all your blood pours
Downward SpiralMy heart beats
Is it beating?
I sit here
Wondering and waiting
Will the pain go away?
If I stop breathing
Will it hurt?
I have no control
I want it to stop
Who am I?
What am I?
An evil that burns
An evil that yearns
I'm not free
I will never be free
Never in my mind
Someone stop it
Stop the beating
It hurts too much
Or hurts not enough
Why am I here
Why why why
Why am I so lost
Lost even before then
I haven't been found
I can't find
No More ChasingYou sat there and made me believe
Giving me hope so I can breathe
Belief in love and hope for good
Always seemed to brighten my mood
But then you pulled away and frowned
In all my thoughts I could have drowned
Maybe it was too much that I expected
The reason why you had retracted
All I want now is to have no pain
And your love is what I want to gain
I know what I want is much to ask
I know it's just too hard of a task
I will stop all my hurt and chasing
Limit the time with me you're facing
I won't be bothering you anymore
Because for now my heart is too sore
Mother DearIn the deepest, darkest moments
Of this life of mine you were here
Through my pain and rebellion
You chose to stay and comfort my fear
I could never have imagined the blessings
That God has used you to bring to my life
Because even when I acted out towards you
You chose to stay and put an end to the strife
You knew there was potential from day one
That my life would be something more then I ever knew
For years I didn't believe it
But your love and trust in me helped to see it true
An angel in my life is how you should be viewed
For you rescued me from myself
You showed me the path to walk on
and Now the vision ahead is no longer so skewed
God put you in my life to take the place of another
Something I could never have hoped for
Thank you for being who you are to me
My loving and awesome mother
By: C Matthew Sieradzki 5-9-2010 0200
Days of PainI'm just so tired of this pain,
Tired of burying it every day,
Having it kill my insides,
Smothering me when I feel okay,
I hate how I need a crutch,
But on my own it's just way too much.
This burden weighs down my soul,
It holds me beneath waves of pain,
Every time I try to breathe,
The toxin just gets in again,
Somehow it flows through my veins,
Leaving my heart streaked with inky stains.
Why won't the darkness recede,
Where is the light from my burning sun,
I just want to escape,
I'm far beyond just coming undone,
It's so hard to remain strong,
When your world feels terribly wrong.
It isn't right that I feel like a weight,
Dragging my close friends down,
So I attempt to keep things inside,
But on my own I'm likely to drown,
These poisoned waves sap my soul,
And when I'm weak I can lose control.
Keeping it together is very hard,
All I want is normality,
To experience days free of hurt,
I just want to be relaxed and free,
This place is bad for my health,
Maybe soon I'll feel like myse
Crimson LoveMy heart is broken, beaten and battered
Shattered like the most delicate of glass roses
It lies next to you in your bleak and desolate grave
The solemn hole you fell into when you took your final breath
Our life was sound, our love pure
Then we watched our walls come crashing down
As fate intervened in the form of reality
We heard the death clock's chilling chime
I'm left forlorn in this tragic world
I try to live but all in vain
It's not living without you
All that's left are my memories, my illusions, my delusions
The ominous blade, a reassuring friend in which I trust
Glistening with the tears I cry for what could have been
It slides so lovingly into the empty void of my once beating heart
An incredulous and overwhelming sense of relief
I lie in a pool of crimson love
Smiling as I fall from grace
Now we can be together forever
In the land of perpetual darkness
How to become a better colorist?Hey guys and girls. Today something especially for you. Some useful tips from coloring artist.
Some of you asked me about tutorial. I really wanted to write one but they are so time consuming.
So let's start.
1. Make good flats at the start. Use polygonal lasso tool in Photoshop and then Paint bucket tool, it's the most accurate method. Filling areas with brushes is wrong, believe me. You will swear to gods and scream out loud trying to later fill all these tiny holes you didn't notice white painting flats with brush.
Of course don't stick to this advice too much. If you have a bunch of tiny elements it's obvious that it's better to color them with hard brush than to use lasso, especially the polygonal one
My way of doing flats is to make every particular color/character on a separate layer. For example, having two girls, sky and clouds in the picture, I make 3 groups: background, girl1, girl2. Then in each group I make layers for: sky, clouds, skin, hair, shirt, jeans... etc. May look
My thoughts on Human LifeEveryone has their own battles, that's personal to them. From my parents perspective, I was a "mistake"; sticky notes, chocolate-chip cookies, beer and popcorn were also mistakes. I didn't have the greatest life growing up. My parents split up and I wasn't always in the best home, my mom kicked me out at 16 and I had to stay with different people for a while. So fucking what? I still value MY life even if some people don't like me. I'm not going to base my experience in this world off someone elses opinion of me (including my parents). That's stupid. Why should anyone else choose that for me? I choose to enjoy life and I'm happy to be alive. My situation only affected me positively, it made me the strong woman I am today, I am a mother. My child was also unplanned, but some of the best things in life are unplanned. I don't think anyone deserves the right to decide if someone should be dead or alive. I don't support the death penalty either, but I do agree with life imprisonment for peo
Coloring Tips - Choosing the Right ColorsPicking colors for your art isn't always easy - with so many colors to choose from it can often seem overwhelming - where to start? What colors to pick? What colors look good together? If you've studied color theory *(that is the first place you need to start!)* and you still have trouble picking colors schemes for your paintings or coloring, I'm about to make your life a little easier.
Color Scheme Designer: http://colorschemedesigner.com/
Kuler website: https://kuler.adobe.com/create/color-wheel/
And one of the best kept secrets in color picking - the Kuler Extension for Photoshop:
Learning the Ropes -- Pet-Play/BDSM StoryKitten lay stretched across the large bed of her Master, eyes watching the door curiously as she awaited his return. She swished her tail for a moment, completely nude excluding her collar. She waited for several moments, flat on her tummy with head rested on folded arms, until she could hear his footsteps outside the door. In strode the large form of her Master in the next moment, various lengths of rope and her leash in his hands. Kitten watched with anticipation and a lick of her lips.
"Come here, Cat." he said, patting his leg as he sat on the bed.
She mewed softly, moving to sit beside him, head tilted.
Master smiled, clicking the leash into place, motioning for her to lay down. She quickly obeyed, looking up at him for a moment before lowering her head onto his leg, her eyes closing as she purred quietly.
With this Master began to slowly let a piece of rope rub over her back and bare bottom. She quivered slightly, causing him to smile as he watched the ripple of the
Kittens will play... -- Pet-Play/BDSM StoryKitten glanced around the corner into the dark alley, her eyes searching for any danger. Satisfied, she strode into the darkness with a flick of her tail and a look of annoyance over her shoulder at the obnoxious city behind her. Quickly she worked her way through a series of alleys in her path to return home. She was new to this city, and didn't know it too well. However, she knew the way back home as long as she wasn't distracted.
She smiled slightly as she thought of home. Quiet wasn't the right word to describe it. Music was a passion of hers, and it filled the home often. However it wasn't as chaotic and irritating as the city that she quickly tried to leave behind. Her Master would be there at this time as well. She purred softly at the thought, adjusting the small dark blue mini skirt she was wearing, the top tight around her belly and chest, showing just enough cleavage to tease with the black bra beneath.
Suddenly Kitten felt uneasy. Something was wrong. Her ears turned to pic
Incubus I was tired, a little bit drunk maybe, facing away from a man who will remain nameless, eyes closed, half asleep. He started stroking me, my shoulders, and hair really gently, slowly working his way down my back until he was massaging my bum. I was pretending to be asleep all the while and he just continued to stroke and touch me in a such a sensitive way that I was completely absorbed in the sensation of his fingertips on my skin, and the unhurried tactile pleasure that builds as it is accepted and magnified, second by second, in a spirit of surrender.
He pulled up my nightdress a little too, but the way I was laying on my side the only part of me that he could reach was my left buttock. Even so his little finger snaked its way into my knickers and squirmed its way into my pussy. I was already wet, he must have known I wasn’t asleep but I continued to pretend, and he let me.
He shifted position, pulling aside my knickers and separating m